Either way - I miss you

I measure your absence
In the unanswered calls, texts emails and IMS
In the songs I hear that remind me of you
In the echoes of your name as I say your name in the emptiness you left behind
The compassionate side of me wonders ….
Are you okay?
Are you hurt?
Is work grueling?
Is your family
Are life’s challenges getting you down?
The insecure side of me wonders . . .
What did I do?
Did you go back to her?
Did you ever really like me?
Will I ever see you again?
But either way ….
I miss you.
You’ve excluded me from your life
My friendship left upon a shelf
It will be there … if/when you return
We’ll dust it off and start anew
But till then … I won’t hang on you